New Blog!

 I sort of feel like I am talking to myself over hear and this blog contains things that I don't really want to share with friends and family so I decided to make the switch to a new blog that I won't feel anxious about sharing on my other social media.

Humanoid Lifeform is where you can find me from now on!

16.12.20

Just popping in with a post of today's makeup look.

Products used are pictured below!

Friends of the Non-Human Variety

 So I really don't have a huge article or anything to write. This is literally just a photo dump of me with furry friends, and one slithery friend.

The photo above is me with my brothers old rat, Pete. He was a complete sweetheart and loved to travel around on people's shoulders.

This photo is of me playfully biting the ear of Pippin the bunny. Pippin was in need of a home and I agreed to take him while we found him a permanent home. He had a bit of an attitude but he liked sitting on my shoulder even when he stopped being able to fit. He also loved watching movies with me and would always come hop up on my lap whenever I was watching TV.

This one wasn't actually a pet of any kind. I was helping my friend who was a film student with a short film and happened to find this little guy. He seemed rather happy to be held, it was a chilly day so he was likely just happy for the heat source. Almost everybody else was mildly afraid of him despite him being so tiny and completely non-venomous.

And last but not least, we have Nebula. This was taken not long after I first adopted her in 2018. She is still with me and is currently sitting on my feet as I write this. She is one of the friendliest cats I've ever met, she will immediately go up to anyone that enters my home to beg for pets.

Story Time! Early 2014-2015

 So, as promised in my last post, I am going to share a bit of my life from the seven years since I was last active. I'm sure I have no viewers left but that is hardly going to stop me! This photo here was taken probably about a month into 2014.

I left school in December of 2013 due to personal reason, this was also the time in which I abandoned this blog. Anyway, I took a bit of time for self-reflection before finally feeling stable enough to enter the workforce. It was nothing fancy, simply working the front counter at a fast food restaurant.

It was a fast paced job which honestly didn't help my anxiety in any way imaginable. Still, I stuck with it before ultimately deciding that going back to school would be the best route for me. It might seem odd as I had just come back from school a few months prior but this time around I made the decision to stay in my hometown.

This was a great decision as it gave me a support group while attending school; something I hadn't had the first time around.    

At the advice of my mom, I decided to take hairstyling. I will admit that I didn't have any sort of grand moment where I discovered this was my life's calling. It was fun and I did enjoy it. There were others in the class that seemed to live for hairstyling and I envy them, to find something that you love and can profit from is something beautiful.

I did come to genuinely enjoy cutting hair, while I could really leave the colouring and updo's to the others. This posed a bit of a problem because it is a hard thing to find a place that will hire you for just doing haircuts. 

I didn't let this get me down though, I finished school with honours and in high regard with my instructors. I met some great people and I did ultimately find a job within a few weeks of graduating. The job I found ended up being at a men's salon. 

There would be the odd client that would colour their hair but it was far and few between. I did eventually come to love doing short haircuts. I don't mind working with longer hair but working with shorter more 'masculine' cuts was where I found I had real talent.

I will get more into my life after school in later posts. It has been over five years since I graduated from hair school so there is lots more to tell. Instead I will leave you with some photos taken from my time as a student!

The above is probably from somewhere within my last month of schooling and the one below was taken at some point while I was in class, clearly after I had just coloured my hair purple.

2020! Hell of a year!

 I know that this blog has died and found its way into a fiery pit in hell; but I am indeed still here. I've popped in a few times since this blog was last active, seven years ago, I do believe. Anywho, I was talking to a friend earlier and they mentioned that they sometimes wrote in a blog and it reminded me that this dinosaur of a blog still existed.

So, with the fresh reminder of my past as a blogger, I naturally did what any person would do. I found this badboy and decided to look through some of my rather embarrassing photo's of me as a teenager. Some would probably burn the proof of those awkward years, but I believe in maintaining a certain level of humility.

If you lose your ability to laugh at yourself then you lose your ability to love yourself. I also must admit that I really do miss many of the articles of clothing in these posts, almost all of them have found their way into a donation bin at this point. I also love going back through and looking at my old music recommendations.

I really did find myself listening to some great tunes back then. Some have stayed with me and others have faded away only to be found anew. I have discovered more great music and I have also grown much as a person in more than just music and fashion.

The years that I wrote in this blog were some of the lowest years of my life. This blog hit rock bottom at the same time I myself did. People say that when you hit the bottom that you can only go up from there. I have found this to be true, but I have also found that lifting yourself off the ground does not mean that you will not fall back down again.

I know I'm probably rambling and all, but taking a look at this blog which in many ways was sort of like a diary. I really did put a lot of myself into these posts. I used them to vent, to seek validation, and to connect with others.

When you are met with so many memories of the past I think you can't help but compare your life then to what it is now. I can say that I have had rough patches and good patches in life, but overall, I have become a much more confident person as I've grown.

I have learned more compassion than I ever thought possible, I learned that it isn't only others you need to show compassion to but also yourself. There are many other things I have learned growing up but I do fear that I have likely already made this post far longer than most people would care for reading so I will cut things off here.

I just moments ago saved many pictures of myself from 2014 up to present day and hope to make posts over the next few days sharing my life with anyone that stumbles across this blog.

I think it only fair that I start off with my most recent of photos. From there who knows what I'll do, maybe I will start from oldest to newest or maybe I will pick randomly and share bits and pieces of the wild ride I've been on since reaching adulthood.

So without further ado, I leave you with pictures from a little under a week ago. These were taken the same day that I cut and coloured my hair. 

So, this is me, now at 26. Rocking a completely DIY haircut and colour.

I'm Alive and swimming!

I know I have made promises in the past that I would return to blogging, only to have that not happen, and for that I apologize. I have had a rough time with mental health over the last few years and am only now on a path towards accepting and dealing with my issues.

I would continue on with this blog but the honest truth is that this blog just isn't who I am anymore. Reading through my old posts I barely recognize any of those words as having been written by myself. I was just a child, a lost teenager striving for attention when I started this.

When I seemingly fell of the side of the planet it was after many stressful bumps to my psyche that needed to heal and in order to do that healing I needed to do so in private, with the support of friends and family.

Anyway, with most of those wounds healed over I am starting a new leaf in life and with that a new blog! The last one had started when I was starting to discover who I was as a person and as I now feel I am again on the path to discovering myself I think it only fitting to use my blogging as a sort of recording of my progress as a human being.

Like I said earlier, I have outgrown this blog and this will be my last post on it, I however will not delete it as there are some articles on it that I know some have found very helpful, I also wish to keep it as a sort of keepsake of who I used to be.

I have instead created a whole new blog that you are all free to follow. I plan on adding some structure to it with regular themed posts. I will link it below.

Check it Out! 

A Mighty Revamping!

So it has been a long while since my last post.  I was fully intending to completely stop blogging as I had simply lost interest.

I am not feeling an urge to post again so rather than start a whole New blog I have decided I will instead revamp this one!

This will include a change of name, a whole new look, and a slight change in the theme of my posts.

I will not be deleting any of my old posts as they are the roots of this blog as well as holding some treasured memories.  My thoughts and feelings while writing these posts have all worked to make me the person I am today and I think will help keep a record of how I have grown and evolved as a person.

Some posts you can look forward to in the near future are an update on my life between ny last post and now, some tunes that are a current fav of mine, current reading lists and so on!

I am excited to hear from the few of you that may still be lurking around from before, so don't be afraid to leave comments or even suggestions on posts you would like to see!